setting goals or facing fears??

I like so many other women am VERY hard on myself. When I make a stupid mistakes like forgetting to pay a bill and then having to pay an extra $15 in late fees it really chaps me. Or going to the grocery store and getting everything on my mile long list except the MAIN thing we need, like toilet paper. So when I started weight watchers a week ago I promised myself that I would not be so mean to me and if I slipped up and ate bad well that happened and deal with it and move on. and you know what?? it hasn't worked!! I think I'm even harder on myself now because I have to record it and actually type it out and that makes me feel even worse!! but thats the whole point of recording everything you eat, you are more conscious of what you put in your mouth. So I have 2 goals for the near future...1. eat better so I don't have the "type" of shame and 2. STOP BEING SO HARD ON MY SELF!!! now these are just my immediate future goals and I don't know if I am ready to type out all my goals, I think that not only would it take all afternoon but I don't think I'm quite ready to face some of them. I'm only talking about goals within myself...not financial goals (I have those too!) but goals to either change or improve myself. Maybe they are more like  fears then goals. or is that the same thing?? If you aren't afraid of it then you wouldn't have to set a goal to achieve it right??

where we will start

On a cold January night in 2011 I promised myself I would be in bed before midnight. So in keeping with my normal trend of NOT keeping promises to myself I decide that at 11:30pm I would start a blog. I sat looking at the screen trying to figure out what my hook or my "thing" is that would set me apart from any other Mom bloggers but in doing that I realized that I have nothing...I'm not anything but ordinary....I'm EXTRA ordinary in fact. and I am definitely ok with that. I am lucky enough to have 2 yes TWO loves of my life. My 1st being my soul mate/bff/lover/baby daddy/hubbs...Willie. and the 2nd my lil buddy/sidekick/personal comedian/shadow/son...Max. age 2 1/2. Within those 2 adorable human beings lies my heart and soul. There is nowhere in the world I would rather be when I'm sitting on the couch cuddled up holding my loves. Ok so you get the fact that I'm mildly obsessed with these 2 boys. So onto other things....
Now I guess I need to have a great reason to make you want to come back day after day or week after week to read what I have to write. Well I can say that I am not out changing the world...only diapers. I wish I could help inspire people to change their lives, eat better or work out harder but I'm still on that journey myself. So I can offer this...I am an ordinary stay at home mom that has jammies with holes in them and a comfy robe on and I'm ok with that! I love my life and the people in it and of course there are lots of things I would love to change (and I am working on it) but when you get right down to the core of who I am I am happy with myself. I just want to offer my funny and sad life stories, my hits and flops with recipes, and all the wonderful mommy moments that I get to experiance every day of my stay at home mommy life:)